Many people (very old, very sick, in a lot of pain, losing capabilities, etc. etc.) desire death when it comes so it is premature to worry about death until you are closer. If you are in that situation you will feel great and new freedom ---- relieved of pain, free from a worthless body, fully alive, etc. when you 'die' (leave your physical body).
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