More than a break. I'm at a point where this site unfortunately is now more a liability than a benefit to me personally. My wife and children know I come here. They know how I feel about the church. They accept me. I'm working on accepting myself. Like mentioned my anger has become an autoimmune response and I ache for my family to leave the church. I need to focus on reducing my anger, inf
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If your psychology needs metaphysics to overcome what we both know feels underneath insurmountable, by all means and do no harm.
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Great point in my opinion. I see anger and love as two sides of the same coin. They both can have the effect of strong reactions to people in intrusive ways. Biology is getting us together for good or ill and in the case of love probably both.
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Thank you for your sharing. Using anger is risky often because it is a weapon that can do more damage to me than to where it is directed. I would sometimes like to be disarmed of my anger completely but then my childhood survival instincts prove stronger.
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I think your last thought was the most correct. Age is more perspective. But the anger I'm talking about is from being used and abused. Used is awful. Abused causes PTSD. It isn't a tit for tat fight but calculated persistent harm with complete disregard or actual pleasure in those harmful effects.
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Thank you for your research. This helped me immensely. I'm going to check out your book recommendations.
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So this thread is just a joke?
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I don't know what this has to do with my thread.
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I'm not advocating feeling the emotion of anger or ridding humanity of it. It just becomes a black hole sometimes and a dark matter to deal with.
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Lot's Wife Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Frankly, how anyone handles his own trauma is no > one else's business. Until it is. I know personally many self and others destructive ways to cope. If a simmering undercurrent of anger works I'm not judging. There are many more worse methods.
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https://www.washingtonpost.com/books/2023/08/02/body-keeps-score-grieving-brain-bessel-van-der-kolk-neuroscience-self-help/
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I can't figure if I could be angry about my former Mormonism as a thing to harbor for the rest of my life? I was sexually abused as a child and I have harbored anger about it for much of my life. Middle age has brought much of that to and end. Much like Mormonism abusing me and many many of us here I wonder if anger can become just a way of life for some? It has taken me a very long time to di
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This is such a weak argument as to be laughable. If you were a rat in a maze and owned your existence to lab scientists would you trust them simply because they exist? And they give you food which you obviously aren't requiring off God.
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Things can change in cultures with in few years.
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It is and it also means I'm closer to many many Mormons. My reference group isn't reflected in this thread.
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Lol. I wonder if he ever had the naivete or wonder if a child in his life. Mr. Rogers is never in the category as Mormon.
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Yep. That loss of control.
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It smells a bit musky in here.
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Had one last night. It was a nightmare. My companion hated me. I had to cut my long hair and the other missionaries were young and awkward with me.
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In a world full of information people are starving for it. Information used to be shared human to human. Now that is no longer needed. And information needs context, people, settings and cultures. Now is the time of AI power.
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Seriously? This asked about the group of people who marry dead people and think only married get saved. I'm my opinion this is one of the pointless polls here.
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I think it takes generations to move generational families from the church. My children accept both the things they see in the world and the bigotry of their leaders and don't seem to have the cognitive dissonance I still am suffering though I've rationally resolved it in my thinking. Those roots rub deep.
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If one were to have laughed loudly naked in their initiatory would they be immediately disqualified from the CK?
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2020 was COVID. How do they know this is generational? I don't even think young people are dropping it like many here do. Mormonism has always had bad retaining practices. In my life I've seen man people leave. It is probably at least 10 percent in my experience.
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When they start using their billions to fund terrorism.
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I reached a part in Empire of The Summer Moon where federal troops were moved from fighting prairie peoples to camp out in the Utah Territory. I don't even know what that was about. Is this an accurate description? https://site.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/history/topics/utah-war?lang=eng&adobe_mc_ref=https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/history/topics/utah-war
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I for one have.
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Laughter shows us as animals. https://www.psypost.org/2023/07/new-psychology-research-indicates-laughter-can-communicate-a-lot-more-than-good-humor-167342 It communicates a lot like animals.
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Yeah, teach with a thong. That isn't nudity.
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Do you have a suggestion for a better title? And for previous generations that is nudity.
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