I was born into the church. Even at a young age I couldn't convince myself of any difference between what was going on at church and what would be considered brainwashing. Either way, you take a young child and tell them something over and over again until they believe it.

I didn't want to offend or upset my parents, so I stuck with it. Went on mission, married in temple, had kids early on.

My wife was/is a mess because of the church. Multiple psychological and personality disorders. Sleeps all day long. No sex. No activity. Nothing. Depressed. Depressing to be around.

Long lonely 20 years of vapid existence.

Finally, I'm done. DONE. DONE.

I left the church, the cult, the indoctorniating-young-children organization.

But now what? I've been alone all my life. Now even more.