Posted by:
haylee22
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Date: April 16, 2013 10:17PM
So, last Saturday, my ward was in charge of the stake's program for the new baptismal covenants. We have a tradition in our stake that one of the ward's youth takes over the program for the poor eight year olds. There's singing, talks, the like. Frankly, the whole situation was rather awkward for me. I had to bite my tongue to keep from yelling out, telling the three girls not to do it. Not to go through with it. They didn't deserve a life full of this shit.
Anyway, the meeting was long and the speakers droned on and I wanted to shoot someone by the end of it, but anyway, back to my main point. One of my young women's leaders drove me home. I was in the car with a few of my friends, and a few younger girls. While we were stopped at a light, there was an older gentleman, in a wheelchair, with a sign that said 'Unemployed, Disabled Vet, Help Appreciated.' This older man looked gruff, sickly, and like he'd been through hell and back. I felt so bad for the poor man, and before I could express my sympathy for the individual, my young women's leader, a woman I once admired, started off by saying.
"What is THAT doing here? This is a nice neighborhood. We don't need free-loaders looming around. He should go back to wherever he came from." The other girls agreed. Some of them looked at me, expecting for me to voice the same opinion, but god, did I want to punch all of them in the face.
I merely just looked out the window, wishing that I wasn't such a coward. Wishing that I had been brave enough to get out of the car, tell them how ignorant they were, and go and thank the man for serving my country. I wish that I could get out of the cult sooner, have enough courage to finally tell my parents enough is enough. I wish that Mormons weren't so judgemental, if they even notice that they are. I wish I was strong enough to leave at the moment, but I don't want the grief that I know my family will force on my head.
How do you cope with such idiotic people? These were people I once admired, thought of as friends and someone I could turn to. Why do they seem so... Foreign now? I feel like I am living someone else's life, and I hate it.