Posted by:
jiminycricket
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Date: April 12, 2013 05:23PM
Weepingwillow:
I am so full of support and understanding - what shock you are experiencing! I found the information on the internet last December. I'd stay up till 3 or 4am listening to podcasts etc. I spent at least 10 hours/day in my spare time for 90 straight days - obsessed with learning more. The more one learns the more the ENTIRE LDS story taught by the General Authorities, Church Education System, missionaries etc. becomes completely riddled with problem after problem. In short you'll soon be asking yourself, "is there any thing Joseph Smith did that isn't mucked up with tons of issues?" He didn't get the first vision recorded honestly, or the priesthood restoration, or the name of the church on the first two tries, or the angel Moroni/Nephi narrative, or the BOM story and trying to sell the copyright in Canada to make money, or the Book of Abraham, and on and on. The answers are not fun to hear, accept or discover. It hits like a BOMB. That is why The GAs don't want us to look. They loose their power and authority over you and I - discredited in seconds - only a mouse click away.
Think about it logically - the true God of Heaven reveals his true Gospel in this dispensation to his one true prophet - and 180 years later we are told by the likes of Boyd K Packer NOT TO LOOK or study the beauty of God's true revelatory process. How in God's name could He have been so stupid!
But remember, the truth will set you free. It's not a pretty sight or feeling to experience. Learning the truth is a process. After several weeks of my discovery, and going through so many emotional upheavals, I ran across a podcast by John Dehlin documenting the mental process. In my case he was spot-on.
Look at it and know you are normal, real, loved by all on this board, and have to mentally go through a de-programming of the massive institutionalized misrepresentations of the church. It takes time. Vent often - we are here to help. Hugs.
Video from MormonStories, "Why People Leave the LDS Church"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uZQJc5SxnVs