Posted by:
jesuswantsme4asucker
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Date: January 24, 2013 05:16PM
I am a happy atheist/agnostic, much of my family is no longer TBM but I was raised very TBM and my parents are both still TBM. I only came out to my mom last year so it was a shock to her and I still get regular emails from her either reminding me about some spiritual thing I did as a kid, or sharing a story from mormondom to try and bring me back into the flock. I just received one yesterday and I have to say I finally broke down and told her just how destructive and hurtful I think the LDS faith is and that nothing on earth would bring me back.
Anyway, this recent effort of hers got me wondering just why she can't let go. I know there are lots of reasons, such as the church teaching her she is responsible for my spiritual choices, fear of not having me in the CK, etc but a new one just came to mind. I realize now that since 3 of her 5 kids are no longer believers she is faced with the reality that she will be mostly alone in the CK. This really invalidates much of her own effort and struggle to do as the church wants. She has gone all her life, paid tithing, held callings and generally just sacraficed a great deal to get to the CK. Now she looks at who will be with her in the CK and sees that she will be missing many of the most important people to her. In short, the CK is no longer the reward she thought she would get regardless of how cool it is otherwise. Her non believing kids are invalidating all of that hard work and effort right before her eyes. That must be a heavy blow to take. I have to agree, heaven wouldnt be heaven if it were missing everyone I love here on earth. Damn that is an evil bit of work for a church.