Posted by:
sparkyguru
(
)
Date: January 12, 2013 06:02AM
so more on the saga of being true to myself and disclosing to my family what I really believe.
as I posted earlier things went reasonably well, no renting of garments or anything like that, very amicable reception of my statements. of course they have expressed disappointment in me (as is part of the 'training' from youth up.)
I thought maybe the process I went through might help others. So here it is:
I think I came to fully believe the church to be based on a fraud a couple of years ago. of course I had no idea how to tell my family. And back then had no intention to. but, I did bring up piece of upsetting things here and there with my family (my parents and siblings, to my own children I was much more blunt and forthright) I didn't really plan it this way, but I kinda wanted to see if any of my other family had researched as much as I had. so I would bring up questions on polygamy, and various things, I would point out situations where they professed things that were at odds with things the professed to believe (IE democrats are interested in helping others, where as republicans think everyone should work for what they get and the poor somewhat deserve their lot in life. I would point out how JC teachings are more inline the democratic thought)
so in essence here and their they were getting their preconceptions challenged but not at a blatant level for a significant period of time.
I do think this raised suspicion about what I might believe, some siblings talked about how my family were discussed when we weren't there. So at some level for some amount of time they all began to think about it. I am sure their cog dissonance fired off and on some as they tried to reconcile my actions with some of the things I had been saying, all along I was very nice and loving and didn't act in anyway different that before. I had mentioned many times over the years that studying church history was hard on my faith.
finally to the last week where I disclosed outright, in our discussions with each of our family the first statement I made was I have come to believe the church is a fraud. That is a true statement that I think the may have suspected to hear by this point. Thus I didn't hit them so hard with it the blow was softened I think by the questions they had been hearing before. I do think it needed to be said that clearly however. it was important for them to hear distinctly that I doubted the veracity of it all. Looking at it in hindsight, I think if I had dropped the bomb day one, it would have blown up far worse. As it is all of them have expressed that our family relationship doesn't change.
I think they might have hopes of 'saving us' and that is fine. they only want us to be happy, it is hard for them to reconcile that we are happier now than before, it is counter to what their belief system preaches. We plan to participate in family activities just as much as before so they can see how happy we are. I really hope that they will do their own research, who knows, but we are now open and for me any my family that is a good thing.
so in short this is the process that worked for me:
Ask difficult but not too threatening questions, don't hit them with something that will immediately raise their shields. Just things that will get them thinking.
wait
point out that things you are studying are really affecting your beliefs and they cause you struggles.
wait
repeat the above till something happens in your life that brings it all into focus and you have to say something. Focus more on the questions than your own struggles.
wait just enough to gather your thoughts, write down what you think and how you drew your conclusions.
Invite them to dinner in a restaurant, let them eat first, (it can be a tummy churning experience.) The public location also helps people keep a civil head. Be very blunt and straight forward when you tell them. Express love and commitment to a healthy family relationship.
pay for dinner. And hopefully you get hugs after.
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 01/12/2013 11:48AM by sparkyguru.