Well its been 17mth since myself, exbish hubbie and daughter(24) stopped going to church. The last of the active ones in my family. Been an up and down journey for us. Moments of sheer relief and joy to be free, and then sadness and anger for having spent so much of our lives investing our time, energy, money and hope and belief in something that turned out to be such a deceptive lie. Its hard sometimes to break free from feelings of guilt and anxiety that had become such a controlling force in our lives. Even now I struggle with feelings of not being worthy or good enough in God's eyes! I have to keep reminding myself that God that I was bought up with (mormon judging God) doesnt exist. The more time that goes by and the more study and learning that I do only reinforces to me what a farce mormonism is. My husband has experienced members shunning him, they just look the other way and walk away. We both laugh about it, he recently had his friend of 30 yrs tell him how disappointed he was in him.
Today is the start of a new future for us. I posted the letter today resigning from the church, My husband, my daughter and myself all on the one letter. We are proud Apostates :) There is a lot for us to learn about ourselves and the world around us. I have loved comming to this forum and read your posts which have helped me not feel so alone, or weird, that most of us share very similar feelings and experiences. I will continue to pop in here and and read and share with you all.

Congrats on taking back your lives officially :)



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The next years of your life will be the absolute best. It's such a good life without the constant lie :)

Congratulations and what a relief it must be to have so much more of your life ahead to really live. And yes, God does not judge as the Mormons say he judges. And if you have a belief in JC, just know that you now have a personal relationship with HIM and don't need to share a thing with any religious leader if you don't want to. No way would I ever be involved in a church with such judgemental and unkind people. Yes, I say unkind because when you leave their real stripes show. My daughter converted and I can only hope she will come to her senses soon.My dear three yr. old grandson is being brainwashed and it is heartbreaking for me. My daughter had been a happy Methodist until she fell in love.

Be happy and be free now to live as you like. Enjoy each day without guilt or stress and your time is all yours now to do with it as you like. You have every reason to be proud. Again congrats to all of you.

...in more ways than one. Congratulations!

I can tell you too, the longer you are out the stranger tbm's will seem to you. It's just hard to believe they haven't figured it out yet.