I was just thinking today about how I used to feel when I was in the worthiness rat race, trying to maintain my temple recommend, but failing at it. All I remember was how awful I felt, and the worst part about it is that I felt at times like I couldn't do anything in the church without being worthy. This includes just doing regular service or anything practically. How awful is that to need to feel worthy in order to help someone move or to just serve in a regular position in the church, like being a ward clerk or on the activities committee? (Those don't exist anymore. The only worthy ones probably all got taken for the big positions anyway). The sad part is that it was highly destructive, leaving feeling like you couldn't participate in life just because you were for instance a masterbater, which would be the case nine times out of ten. It makes you end up feeling like a peodophile that the public needs to be protected from, akin to being put on the sex offender list. After I ditched the thinking of the church, I started to live more and do things without ever thinking that I'm not worthy. Life is a whole lot better and I'll never have to get a temple recommend again.

because there are so many things that they aren't allowed to do anyway and so few leadership positions to be called to. I flew under the radar without a TR for almost my whole morg career.

I was asked to teach RS and to work at the dinners or take food to some families, but that didn't seem to require a TR and that was more than enough for me anyway.

However, you do make a very valid point. I recall sitting in SC meeting after I started to pay my tithing so I could go for an important family sealing. I felt the guilt lift--and I didn't even know it had been there!!!

I drifted away shortly after that, but I still recall that feeling!

I still can only think of it in terms of tbm judgement.

I never had a TR, never wanted one, so I never tried to get one. It creeped me out from the beginning.