Posted by:
runtu
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Date: April 15, 2012 05:34PM
I usually go to sacrament meeting with my wife because she doesn't like to go alone. It's not that bad, and I enjoy sitting and holding hands.
Today was a missionary homecoming, so the place was packed, overflowing well into the gym. The first speaker talked about how every member needs to be a missionary, both by example and by actively sharing the gospel. He said one of the things that always bothers me: "People know who we are, and everyone is watching us to see if we uphold our standards."
This, of course, is complete BS, as no one cares what we are doing, and if they do, it's because they think Mormons are a little weird.
The missionary spoke about how he went into "ghetto" areas with little success but came home humbled and more committed than ever to the church. I think that's one of the main reasons for missions: to cement the loyalty of the missionaries.
I had a moment of clarity, and I felt awful being in there. I knew I shouldn't be there, not because I care what others think, but it felt incredibly hypocritical to be sitting there and knowing how I feel about Mormonism. So, I left.