Ever since I've been looking into the facts of the church, my faith in everything I believed in has plumited to the ground. As of this point in my life, I am taking on an atheist mindset. I am writting a book, practically, of my experiences in the church and my past and present beliefs. My fiance pointed out something crucial to me last night. He said that I have been acting odd lately and he thinks the reason is because I am having to think for my own now. Thinking for myself is something I have never done before when it comes to my beleifs. Why? because whenever I had a question I would flip to the BOM or Bible to tell me the answer. And now that I am casting away both of those books for now, I have no answers to anything. I have failed to analyze anything from my own perspective because I have relied on faith and religion to do it for me. I have to put everything down, and ask myself "What do I believe in?" This doesnt mean what do my parents believe in, what does the world believe in, or especially what do the Mormons and Christians believe in. Im starting from scratch! Im like a new born. Does anyone else feel this way?

When you think for yourself. You are so lucky to be discovering this while you are young.

You have to retrain your brain.