For the past week or so I have been getting thoughts in my head to post some things. I hope this can help maybe just one person because that is why I am writing this right now.

When I went through leaving the church at 22, alone, scared, defeated...I turned to music and saw that Mormonism was just a cult and people have left the traditions of their fathers for new age ideas all along history and maybe just maybe these blessed inspired artists are speaking to my soul through their own struggles and triumphs... music....it helped healed me...

Artists I feel are divinely touched and inspired individuals.

I wanted to share with you guys some of the songs that touched me throughout my exit of thus, now, three years... glorious life now...not one full of burden thoughts and 'do I really have to' mind frame.

I am a free spirit by birth and I am glad I am on the right path of reclaiming it. I am going to put them in order of when I came across them throughout my process.

I have loved Bon Iver since I heard his music three years ago. This year he won a grammy for best new artist. Before I deleted my facebook I posted two of his songs and when his new album came out I also posted that to my wall. This guy to me--knows music, he is deep.

I have been through complete hell the last year facing my demons and trying to reclaim MY life and who I am on the inside. Bon Iver has inspired me along with many other artists.

I reflect and see a climb I faced with some sort of due diligence and a purpose to set the truth free that I knew in my heart. I wasn't strong enough...for about two years to do this, until I met him...my fiance, not to get lovey dovey here cause I am not that type. He is my best friend.

I didn't know what would become of me fighting the Mormon church out right on my fbook. I cared but the fight for truth was much larger than me. I see the grandeur taking form now...is it almost spring equinox.. re-birth. That's my birthday too.

I was so fragile when I discovered the truth. I was clinging onto whatever I could get my hands on. My solace was music. I could escape and see glimpses of a brighter tomorrow. I wish everyone peace and happiness.

I tell people now that I am just me. I am just trying to be the best version of me. I am not competing with you, or anyone else. I am the one that has to live with me. I bear that not you. Here are some of the songs I wanted to share if you are interested:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLTbFaoZuVQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=774mOmdKtZM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T0yaQ20dpWI&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7-zmQ3XEc0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQ8gjtMYEA4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DxnSJKt51zk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4_6eQm7RTQ


I have more but just felt the need to share some.

Just wanted to add that the i-tunes version of these songs are at least 2 times better than the you-tube bad recordings. I also wanted to add Norah Jones- "Long Way Home" to the list. That was my most recent before I pushed delete on my fbook. Take care everyone!

Music has always helped to heal my soul when it's hurting.

When I lost what I thought was my best friend of 45 years. When I placed my first born for adoption. When my mother had a stroke.ETC.

For me there is no stronger healing force than the music I love.

Thank you for sharing that beansandbrews.

Music to me invokes unexplained energy. It clears channels inside me and has allowed truth to be what it is...truth.

Someone earlier wrote something similar on a different thread about truth. You can't change truth. I liked it.

Truth was able to settle to the bottom. I was able to come to terms with my past. I still struggle, but am getting better.

My sister would walk by my room and say...Why do you listen to that type of music? It sounds really depressing... I had no reply for her, who wants to admit they are depressed? What is depression anyways? It was just my music of choice at that time, and will forever love it. It relaxed me. I was sad. I was angry too.

Today the songs have more meaning to me than they did back then. I didn't realize how they...those memories of music and deep thinking would impact me on my reflection of three years coming.

The sadness of living in almost exile can really do a fair number on an individual. I have never been even close to giving up. that is not an option. I want to grow old, sit and watch the sunset on my porch...rock back and forth with my husband and love ones close by. I want a full life. Everyone deserves that.

I can't forget about the song of this season and one I keep pushing replay to.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMl8cQjBfqk

I liked this whole album when I attended my senior year at BYU-I. I then went to their concert when I was doing my student teaching in Las Vegas. It has been years since I have listened to it. It has a totally different meaning to me now than it did summer 2008 and fall 2008. I am not that same person.

I couldn't agree more--you need 3 plus listenings to really get a good feel of the song.

I will have to look that skit up on SNL. I do have to say that JT lake drives me up the wall a tad. Trying to be an actor now too. His acting is not the best. He seems a little self indulgent.

I don't know these artists personal lives. I just know they speak to me-- give me hope in my life. They resonate inside my soul.

Thanks for sharing the songs that have helped you heal. Share away everyone. I love sharing. Remember sharing time in primary, when I was a kid it was still fun.

I've been a fan of Bon Iver and Ryan Adams (starting in Whiskeytown) since the very beginning. I like a lot of Mates of State as well. I didn't care much for the other songs, but it usually takes a 3+ listenings to really get a feel for a song, imo.

My favorite albums of the past 1/2 year have been:
Destroyer's Kaputt:http://open.spotify.com/album/1clYDgHxfhzxWQJH0ieRpx

Fleet Foxes' Helplessness Blues: http://open.spotify.com/album/20RJRsAPD9Yx3Nols5cAGR

Lindsay Buckingham's Seeds We Sow: http://open.spotify.com/album/1MBwoQpSbUk4FmGRuR7qtw

Band of Horses' Infinite Arms: http://open.spotify.com/album/08fkw9uDP2KET6cPIl74Xo

Cheers!

And did you see Justin Timberlake as Bon Iver on Saturday Night Live last week? Hilarious!

... I do hope this helps with your recovery:

http://youtu.be/IXOyKmH2_NI

Timothy

OMG Timothy that was awesome! Is that you?? I love it! Divine I can't say I know that for sure but they are in tune with a bunch of stuff that is above me. It does surge through my veins though! Another song of this season that I can't get enough of is this one by mates of state. they are married in real life btw. A good Mormon friend from high school introduced me to this group. His whole family is musical and great people all around. - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txFFd5IKqQ0

I blast it and get stuff done around my house. I like to sing it at the top of my lungs too. It gets a lot of crummy stuff out and lets light in! bam! love music!

I loved that video Timothy once again!

I saw Burger King using this song on their commercial. it made me smile. yummy, that sounds good right now- well not burger king but a starbucks. iced quad venti white chocolate mocha... that may not be the right order you say it in. They love correcting me at starbucks for what order I put it all in. I am just thinking, "You'll have to forgive me, I still get anxiety from my childhood, thinking coffee is bad! I am still recoverying..."

Doesn't matter if you're the performing artist or the end user, it works just the same.

The "inspiration" for Joseph Smith Blues came from the frustration that is often expressed on this board concerning the first profit seeker and tax evader to the cult.

Here's another tune I did that was "inspired" by the possibility of garnering a sizeable paycheck:

http://youtu.be/ZPzHSf_iIz4

Then ya gots yer musical types who are Inspired by the ineffable thrill that comes with sharing a great performance with a more than appreciative audience:

http://youtu.be/A9RK7Ypwyfg

The gal on the left is the late, great Deenie the Dreaded Single Adult who graced these pages with her unique brand of wit and wisdom until sadly succumbing to cancer. As fellow musicians, music lovers and exmos, we sometimes discussed the role music played in our respective lives. Though we had taken different paths, we concluded that our dedication to the craft of making music was as much a life-saver as it is for the average listener who gets lost in an agreeable musical composition.

Its all good!

Timothy



Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 02/24/2012 08:10AM by Timothy.