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shannon
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Date: November 21, 2010 10:16AM
Sasha turned 18 yesterday. She ran from the group home before dawn. She's a chronic runner (all the way back to the years she lived with us). This time no one is going to look for her - no police, no caseworkers, no school, no family. She's of legal age. This is a recent picture of her with me the day after she was hit by a truck while running (off her meds, not paying attention):
http://i54.tinypic.com/28b4788.jpgThat was the day I reunited with Sasha this summer. We gave her up to the "system" when she was 15 because she was a danger to herself, the small children in our home, and me. We kept her 8 years, until she finally attacked me and left severe bruising.
Our family took her to Disney World for the weekend a few weeks ago. Her biological sister, Marina (black shirt - age 20) is standing just in back of Sasha (in blue shirt) in this pic:
http://i51.tinypic.com/3531q2u.jpgJust to bring this post on topic . . . take a good look at those Russian sisters. There were miracles with their adoptions. Miracles I still can't explain. I used to believe my girls would return to their homeland one day and help convert the entire former Soviet Union to the Gospel. <sigh>
After the Disney vacation, We started making plans with the caseworker for Sasha to join our family holiday gatherings this year. My mom spent an early birthday with her and bought her clothes, took her to lunch, and gave her money.
But Sasha rejected us (again). Just like she rejected the two American adoptive families before us. I'm too upset to tell my story again, but this article will give you an idea of what we lived with for years:
http://www.post-gazette.com/headlines/20000814russiadaytwo1.aspSasha is on the run and, legally, no one can stop her now.
She has Reactive Attachment Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Schizoaffective Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder with Psychosis, Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, Traumatic Brain Injury, and an IQ of 79.
She's off her meds. She's a high school drop-out. She has a borderline IQ and a horrific history of sexual abuse which has translated to sexual acting-out behaviors. She will pick up any random guy who offers her food, money or a place to stay for the night.
One of these days, the wrong guy is gonna pick her up. He'll kill her and dump her body on the side of the road. And I'll never know.
I used to believe Heavenly Father was big enough and strong enough to "fix" Sasha. I don't believe that anymore.
Sasha usually texts me from some random phone when she is on the road. I'll probably never see her again, but it would be a comfort just to know she is still alive.
So, take a good look at her picture, just in case she heads out West on I-10 this time . . . and if you see her, tell her to text her mom.
Shannon