Posted by:
justanotherprettypiece
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Date: September 30, 2011 02:55PM
Last night I had the worst nightmare I think I've ever had. I've had weird dreams before in the past too. When I was 10 I dreamt one of my older brothers tried shoving our grandma in the oven. When I was pregnant I dreamt I was breastfeeding our dog. Really weird dreams.
Last night I dreamt my younger brother and his wife were chasing me and one of my sisters. We were on a roof and my SIL fell off and died. My brother comes at me with a knife and I stab him in the heart. And I really make sure it's in there, which is the part that bothers me the most. I can actually remember the knife in my hand trying to shove it in. *Shudder*. Me and my sister lay him down and by now I'm just terrified and SO sad and I take his hand and I hold onto it really tight and I ask him, "Does it hurt?" And I am feeling so guilty that I'm causing him pain. He tells me, "No, I'm already gone. I'm already gone."
The rest of the dream (from what I vaguely remember) consisted of me crying, looking for my sister, and crying with my dad wondering how the hell I was going to tell him that I killed my brother.
All day today I've felt like I'm some horrible person. Where does a dream like that come from?? I haven't been able to stop thinking about it and to stop feeling guilty! It's really bothering me. Please tell me I am not the only crazy person here with insane dreams :/