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Mother Who Knows
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Date: January 17, 2018 07:44PM
You pretty much described my own marriage. My ex was an expert liar, and could talk and act his way through any lie he chose to tell. He actually enjoyed lying. He liked the skulking around, and the initial conquests, more than the actual sex, in his multiple affairs. They weren't really "affairs," but just physical conquests. It was not about love. It had nothing to do with me or our children. It had nothing to do with Mormonism, either. He was Narcissistic, through and through. His best friend and former roommate told me (too late) that my ex had a piece missing from his soul. This innocent-looking, baby-faced, boyish BYU grad convinced me that he was a virgin, like I was, when we got married. A week later, on our honeymoon, he cheated with an old girlfriend of his. He was having an affair with his secretary and another girl in his building, when I was pregnant with our first child. I did not know any of thus, until 12 years later, after we were divorced.
I am 99% sure your husband is cheating on you. Please, today, right now, go to a drug store and buy condoms. Make up an excuse that you have an "infection" of some kind, that might be spread to him. I caught a STD from my ex, and was very confused about how I got it, since I was 100% faithful.
My husband left me when he did, because a woman threatened to tell me everything, and he knew that I would divorce him. He was well prepared, and he hid all his assets, including the profits from some apartments he and I had owned together. He refused to pay alimony or child support. I got an attorney and was granted only a small amount of child support, which he didn't pay. It became too expensive for me to go after him for such a small amount of money. My ex abandoned us completely, and, to this day, we have no contact, except for a Christmas card (why?)
At first, I accepted the blame from him and from the men in the Mormon church: If a husband has affairs, Mormons believe that it's the wife's fault. I had to go to therapy, to keep my self-esteem at a level where my career wouldn't suffer. The "blame is not with you, dear SkierB!
For my own sake, and for the sake of my children, I needed to know the real facts about what happened. I did research. Some of my husband's women had been "friends" of mine. Some of the women's husbands were friends of my husband. I knew a lot of people. My husband's bishopric brother had affairs also, and those women and two of his ex-wives willingly told me about how the brother would set up my husband with women. It was beyond my imagination that any man would behave like my husband did!
You need to solve your problem. Your problem is your husband. While you are doing this work, concentrate on your children and your your own education and career. (That part of my life, I did right, and my children and I are in great shape, with no contact from that sleaze.
After protecting your health, gain control of your assets, and squirrel away as much cash as you possible can, to pay for a good divorce attorney. Do not let your husband know you are planning on divorcing him. An attorney can advise you on exactly what you need to do to protect yourself and your children. Don't be caught unprepared, like I was. Your children come first.
You need to face the TRUTH! Some of these posters have given you very good advice. Your husband will never change, will never grow up, will never accept responsibility, will never tell you the truth.
When you are ready, hire a detective. If you can't afford one, Follow your husband, yourself. Catch him at his lies. Contact some suspicious people, from his past, that would have nothing to lose by telling you the truth. Most people, you can take them at their word--especially when 30 people tell you the same thing!
A sweet RS lady friend of mine suspected her husband, and actually climbed up the balcony railings to their second-story condo in Park City, and took pictures through the bedroom window! My first clue was that my ex dropped off my son and his friend at the movies, and then, on the other side of the parking lot, let a strange woman get into his car. He told my son to tell me that Daddy was at the movies with them the whole time. Your own children might know things that they are afraid to tell you. My son didn't tell me this until after the divorce.
You have a hard road ahead, but you have your own courage and The Truth on your side. The Truth always comes out. I hope you will be better prepared than I was.