Date: October 10, 2017 10:35PM
I was at work, Badass, and had no stylus, and it took freaking forever to type that last entry, but I had so much to say you that I couldn't get in!
You did a most excellent job of recognizing bullshit. But, and this needs to be said, she needs to be invisible to you. Don't make eye contact. If she texts you, delete it and do nothing else. If she tries to speak to you, just walk past her and say nothing. If she tries to touch you, pull away and walk away, not speaking.
She is in early stalking behaviors, and she sees you as her target. Back when the article below was written, it stated that 17% of stalking victims were men, but that was way before "they" looked at women as equally capable of these dangerous behaviors and crimes. The figure reported today is closer to the 50/50 it logically should be - 44%.
Please read this. She's fixated like the third-grader the article mentions:http://www.nytimes.com/1998/08/25/science/personal-health-do-s-and-don-ts-for-thwarting-stalker.html
And here's updated statistics and other information. You are not alone.http://victimsofcrime.org/our-programs/stalking-resource-center/stalking-information/stalking-statistics
Here's a thought that should help you put her behavior into perspective. She knows you're hurt about mormonism, but she won't leave you slone about it, -because she KNOWS it hurts you. She KNOWS it's your trigger. You've said things to her that informed her of your feelings about mormonism.
Let's role play for a minute, and you pretend that you don't know me at all. I'm playing a stranger, and you are playing you:
You have a friend. You know this person had a really hard time, having been trapped in Russia for most of her life. She has told you how she never wants to think about Russia again. She's been struggling, trying to recover physically and emotionally from all the bad things that happened to her in Russia.
Enter me, the stranger. I want this lady to like me, to be my girlfriend, but every time I see her, I bring up Russia, talk about how communism is the one true society, how wonderful Putin is, quote his and other Russian sayings to her, tell her that she is wrong if she does't want to go back to Russia. I say that Russia is the only place she will ever be happy, and everyone wants her to go back to Russia with me.
She tells you the things I say to her, how it triggers horrible feelings and reactions, how much I hurt her every time I open my mouth. She's tried to avoid me, but I'm always popping by, emailing her, trying to tell her about Russia, what a good Russian I am, and that anyone who doesn't like Russia is wrong.
What would you say to her, badass?
Really. What would you say?
I think you would want to kick my ass, but what, dear badass, would you tell her to do about me when you weren't around to kick my ass?
It feels really rotten not to be there, not to be able to tell the stalker to stay the hell away from my friend badassadam, or pay a price the stalker can ill afford.
Here's something I believe, though. Badass IS a badass, and he's got this. He is learning how to reject what is bad for him, how to walk past and ignore a stalker, how to let this demented bitch's words patter against him like raindrops hitting a rock-solid roof, never making it into the structure. Whatever the hell she says, he can't hear it. She is like a frog croaking down by the creek, it all sounds like ribbit ribbit ribbit.
Every time you catch a glimpse of her, think of that big old warty frog. That's how "important" she and her croaks are to you. If you hear real frogs croaking, just laugh your ass off, knowing they're playing your special "Russian" song, and that's why you don't - WON'T - understand a word of it. Ribbet, ribbet ribbet, croak, croak, croak.https://i.pinimg.com/originals/61/8d/55/618d55263d3d0d9ab23d5e70dd773874.jpg
I like nature, and I sort of struggled to compare that POS to a part of our beautiful world, so a fake frog was better for a fake croaker. :)
And I'm so glad boner and badass wisdom showed up together.
Hope you find comfort in this.
Sleep well, badass. The body heals during sleep, so get plenty of it.