Date: October 06, 2017 08:57PM
The cult changed me and amplified my PTSD, anxiety and depression for decades. I was running on empty trying to become perfect. I was in a dark abyss. When I left, my anger was so intense, it felt like a volcano. I was so burned out, numb, and broken, I had nothing left to give them. That became a turning point, to give freedom and liberation to myself. What changed after leaving is that I lost trust towards all religions. Love one another is what really matters. I don't need a religion for that. I've created more distance to discern facts in ways I never did before. My level of compassion has increased towards being less than perfect. What still needs to change is managing my PTSD. It will be a lifelong journey. Another change is realizing I can live a safe and meaningful life outside the cult. I don't feel guilty about not paying tithing anymore.