Posted by:
journeyjuststaring14
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Date: April 24, 2017 08:32PM
I have gotten myself into a tight spot with my family over the past year. I will confess that I had an affair about a year ago and immediately confessed to my wife and to my bishop. I had the "counsel of Love" and was disfellowshiped. About 3 months into it I was called in for a regular meeting with my bishop and I had been doing everything that he had instructed me to do. Well, apparently he didn't think so. He spent the next 30 minutes berating me and telling me that I am going to lose my family and that I am not really trying. I had spent the last 3 months doing everything they had asked. I was once even called on to say a prayer in Sunday school and since I wasn't allowed I declined in front of everyone. So embarrassing. But this is what the lord wanted right?? Once he was done, I did the dumbest thing ever... I actually followed his counsel. I spent the next 3 months doing even more. I never even so dared to turn on the tv for my own pleasure. Towards the end of the 3 months during my studying of the BOM I started seeing how ridiculous the BOM really is. They would kill thousands, then years later there were thousands ready to die again. It just wasn't adding up, so many different aspects were just plain off. I started not caring about impressing my bishop, wife or anyone at church with how much I was studying and finally just stopped reading and studying the scriptures. Apparently that is what my bishop wanted to see. Not really sure because he then called me in for an update to the counsel and they ended my disfellowship. Hahaha what a joke. I totally BS'ed my way through that and afterwards it was confirmed. The whole system is a joke. That is when I decided to start really researching the church. My eyes have been opened to all the lies and deceit. I have had some discussions with my wife, and even shared what I have found but she is so die hard TBM that none of that matters. She told me she could care less about JS having tons of wives, or the book of Abraham, or any of it. I haven't gone over everything, only a few things so I stopped trying to tell her anything. She is in shock of my confession to not believing any longer. I will be patient and see how it goes. Both of our families are multi generation members so it will be hard if they find out.