Posted by:
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Date: January 14, 2017 11:31PM
Friends I hate to say this but this forum misses a very important detail in all of our exmormon lives. And that is....
We haven't lost the need to feel persecuted.
Boom. I said it. We were born with a persecution complex and taught behaviors to further concrete how we justify a desire to being hunted. A need to be right and for others to be wrong.
When we lost the faith we unwittingly held onto some very hardcore beliefs which manifest in our own weird ways.
Best to completely move on. Otherwise all we are, are exmormons, the opposite of Mormons and just as vehement and justified in nonsense. Look at it. Arguing all the mysteries of Mormonism
I.e. the truths that were hidden from us since the beginning. Believing the we, the exmormons are actually the ones who are correct (what a misnomer! A megaton fallacy!!!). The parallels continue over and over.
We fell off the bike that is Mormonism into a puddle and for some reason won't leave the puddle.
Now I've read a ton on this site and enjoyed some of it and some of it was very therapeutic. I was able to erase certain behaviors and world views by noticing the learned behaviors from looking at them from the other side, at a distance.
That being said, i won't ever change if I stay here and wallow in it. There are always going to be Mormons born and people who leave it. It'll screw people up and some will be happy with it. Am I going to study the historical accuracies and lies of the church with the same vigor I was trained to as a Mormon reading the bom?
No. All I will find over and over again is another way I was mistreated and lied to. It's a rabbit hole. Why spend my whole life in a state of disarray and discontent looking at every rock on my way down the exmormons rabbit hole.
I thank you all for your time and for your stories. I have no doubt that the mavens on this site will point out every detail they think is wrong in my post. I could say that but I'm not here to argue nor to apologize.
Next time you make a point here in this forum. Ask yourself honestly: is there an underlying Mormon born motive for me to make this point? I haven't seen yet on this forum anyone not use some degree of Mormon trained logic to further their pining.
The Methodism of Mormonism is rife here everywhere. And I think some things we are just gonna be stuck with no matter how many truths are dug up. Time to suck it up and move on probably. Sorry folks. Information gleaned here will not be help you feel better. It could help in the interim and that's great! But then it's time to move on. Why spend your life in this dank rabbit hole where people bitch and moan about everything in their life. Usually the only funny things on here are when old guy Boner talks about rubbing one out.
I'm not passing a collection plate and not asking anyone to join my new religion.
It's time to move on completely and leave this behind if you truly want to be yourself and be completely healed.
Peace
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 01/14/2017 11:34PM by oooo.