The more I read here, the less I am convinced that was ever a mormon. I didn't smoke or do drugs. Didn't drink except for medicinal purposes. I did the whole church thing, priesthood thing etc.

Because of home conditions I fled to the military before I graduated high school. After my 2 year hitch where I kept mormon standards I was told a mission was not a good fit for me because I had seen combat. So I was "excused"

I traveled a lot and married outside the temple. But in those days I doubt there were 5 temples outside the U.S.

I never tried to convert anyone, though I answered questions as honestly as I could.

I never lied about polygamy and was fully aware Joseph practiced it.

I never denied that men would become gods if anyone asked.

I had friends from all religions and dated women of many ethnic backgrounds including a lovely black girl in the days the priesthood was banned.

I never shunned a friend or family member.

I never based my affiliation or affections on a person's religion.

I only paid tithing if my family was fed, clothed and healthy.

I turned down callings and told the bishop more than once it was time to release my wife.

I voted against a person for a position on the stake presidency because I knew he was sleeping around.

I spoke up if I thought doctrine was incorrect.

Guess I was just a bad mormon.

From what you described it sounds like you are a very exceptional person though!

Sure it does, but which would desire, to be saved or to be a good person?

yeah you were a bad Mormon which is actually a very good thing. I was a bad Mormon and now I am very proud of myself, because now I know I was a healthy critically thinking good person. It's a compliment to be a bad Mormon.