I'm over the Church, in a sense. Something I really believed in once, but it wasn't hard to let go of. Truth is kind of my thing. But the Church destroyed people I loved deeply and they are still lost in a toxic and bitter wasteland. That hurts, and it will always hurt.

So, I keep coming to terms with it. Helping heal other people helps me. Maybe a lot of us are in the same boat. RFM is part of our recovery process because we are human and here we get to be more human.

I'm starting to see Mormons in a more gentle light. They're not just the raving lunatic in a straight jacket insisting I'm crazy. They're real people stuck in an unfortunate place that some people just can't escape. Maybe someday I'll make peace with this sweet monster that eats everything. Until then, I can only keep telling myself that love conquers all. Mormonism is my compassion bench press and God is my spotter. But let me tell you, this is some heavy shit.

I hope you take satisfaction in the likelihood that your voice is part of what keeps apostasy a very real rite of passage in modern mormonism.

Many of us old timers didn't know anyone else who was doubting or leaving. The worm has turned; now everybody knows good people who very obviously did NOT leave to sin.

I suspect that the majority who leave just ... leave! Maybe I just want to believe it, but whether I'm right or not, it's what I believe. I believe that the majority of TBM parents who see their children apostatize do NOT react in the manner so often depicted here. I want to believe that most parents are not that insane.

I want to believe that the majority of apostates leave and it's no big deal and so they never need to find support. That's my vision and I'm hanging on to it.

Bradley wrote--
-Mormonism is my compassion bench press and God is my spotter. But let me tell you, this is some heavy shit.

Sooooo true

Be true to yourself!

Believe in yourself.

LDS church leaders would say that's Satan whispering in our ears, not truth. If they only knew what I felt in my head, the rightness of it, the lightness of it, they might think instead, that maybe there's more to life than only to obey, and more reward in living as you find your own way.



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