Date: May 26, 2016 07:09PM
All around me are other mormons that carry on with their lives just fine. They accomplizh things. They're leaders. I am having a hell of a hard time seeing myself as anything but a slave. I honestly can't fathom myself leading, I follow and do what I am told. Keep having recurrent dreams where I am literally a slave. An obedient slave willing to serve my kindly master. Its not just submissive fantasy either, its so often to the point of being sick.