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Date: February 12, 2016 04:53PM
She may not mention it, she may not even realize it, but she is being marginalized.
My wife left years before I did. She went inactive and I stayed active for a long time before I too fell into inactivity. (eventually we researched our way out and resigned, but that's another story)
Anyway... After she went inactive, I started noticing that people were giving me "the look". It's one when you see it, you'll recognize it. It says many things all condescending, for me it was , "Oh, that poor man, his wife went inactive, it must be so hard!" and "What's he doing wrong that she went inactive?" or "He should leave her if she won't come back to church!" People actually said the last one to my face.
I was a member in good standing, had the temple recommend, callings, etc. No one on the outside would say that I was being marginalized, but I was. I was the topic of gossip (what goes on at home, I bet they argue a lot! They can't have a happy marriage! I bet he'd like to date my daughter!) Every now and then a class or talk would be directed at me, "how to deal with a spouse who's not active" that type of thing. Remember, other members will picture you constantly sinning around her, trying to force her to drink coffee, alcohol and watch rated R movies.
She's most likely under a lot of pressure at church, whether she'll admit it or not. It is, as they've said in other places, built in.
As for "choosing to belief", that's nonsense. You can't force yourself to believe something. Our brains just don't work that way. We believe things for a lot of reasons (we were raised that way, something makes sense to us for some reason, etc) but we don't "choose" do it. Belief is a result of a lot of things, we can say, "I believe the sky is green" but we don't actually believe it, and we won't believe it without a lot of work, usually brainwashing in a case like that.
In case you're wondering, what made things work with my wife and I while we had different belief systems was that our relationship had a good foundation in mutual respect. We respected each other and allowed the other to believe what worked for them, even supported it whenever possible. We also respected each other enough to not disrespect the other person's belief. If we wanted to talk about religion we did so without using derogatory terms. It wasn't always easy, there was an argument or two (usually when I refused to look at something objectively), but for the most part that worked. Sometimes we just had to agree to disagree. It was very, very difficult for my TBM mind to do, but I managed it after a lot of practice. I love my wife dearly and didn't want this to come between us.
So, it can work...