So I am going to let you in on an embarrassing secret that I have only told few people in my life. Death has always scared the crap out of me. You could say I have very serious Death Phobia. I can't attend funerals and even watching movies with funerals or caskets etc scare the crap out of me. Movie/television show autopsies are just too much. I even have a hard time touching objects that have belonged to deceased relatives. I don't like to interact with people who are dying or near death either. I realize that this is strange, bizarre and abnormal. I should also mention that I have OCD and am seeing a therapist without much luck. I have noticed that since discovering Mormonism is a sham and religions are just made up to help people cope with the unknown I am now an atheist. This hasn't given me any more comfort in regards to my fears of death. Finding out Mormonism is a fraud is one thing but coming to terms that there is more than likely not an afterlife has been the hardest thing for me to deal with.

You've just taken yours to a much higher level. Did you have a fright in your childhood? Has any other family had such a pronounced fear? If reincarnation exists, perhaps you died a violent death in a past life, and carried the memory with you. Just some food for thought.

My family has a very active imagination and fascination with morbid things. No one as far as I know has this same phobia in my family unless they are keeping it a secret.

I think a lot of people really do have issues with death. I know that near every night I dream about my dead grandparents, g-grandparents and the past. My mind is subconsciously wrapped up in another time, long ago before life's sorrows and ugly realities had left a mark on me. Perhaps I long for the innocence of yesterday (paradise lost), I wonder what went wrong?
If you find a coping solution let us know...