It was Normarae's birthday yesterday, and the site seemed to be down every time I got on. It was one of the milestone birthdays, so don't forget to wish her well.
Not afraid to say it was the big 6-0. I'm pretty proud of it actually.
To be on topic: I sat yesterday and started my journal that I'm determined to keep up for the decade, and I was thinking of where I saw myself at 60 when I was a mormon teenager. And then, where I actually am. Boy, was I ever off target. I saw myself living the life my oldest brother's wife lives. And I'm sure she's happy with it. My fantasies would have had me having been married around 40 years to a worthy boring priesthood holder who has at least been a bishop, at least 5 children, all married in the temple, starting on my slew of grandchildren, staying at home and never having had to work, going to the temple often, all my social life and friendships centered around and based on TSCC, serving in high leadership positions, living in Utah or Idaho, blah blah blah, and celebrating my 60th with all the kiddies and grandkiddies and a big happy family photo with all of us in khaki's and blue shirts. You get the picture.
Thinking of that, all I can say is Oh, God, kill me now! It makes me glad that my life didn't go according to plan. It's been a true roller coaster ride. The lows have been pretty low, but the highs have been halfway to heaven. And the birthday celebrations have been ecstatic. They're still going on till the weekend. I'm surrounded by real friends, incredibly smart people, and working a job that I love and hope to spend another decade at. And most of all, I'm not encumbered by false guilt and fear. I'm not living this life for the next one. I live each day as fully as I can NOW.