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tiredofhiding
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Date: February 15, 2015 07:31AM
I have never been a favorite of my mother-in-law. She has made it quite clear from the day that my then soon to be husband announced that we were going to be married, I was not the girl she had selected for him. At first I blew it off as her just being disappointed that I wasn't the LDS girl she was hoping her son would one day marry (I was a convert after all). But it turns out she really had selected a LDS young lady she intended for him to marry and for the next 6 or so years after we were married, every time she spoke to her son, she made a point to tell him how Karen* was doing.
After about 13 years of mental terrorism by her in our marriage, passive aggressive comments, and undermining our parental authority in front of our children, we had enough and my husband gave his mother some very clear boundaries that she was not to cross. (And crossing them came with consequences).
We are now beginning the process of transitioning out of the LDS church, part of that process included making a few changes that weren't exactly earth shattering but to my MIL, they set off alarm bells that told her exactly what our plans were without us having to say a the actual words.
Both my husband and I changed our listed faith on our FB accounts from LDS to "None Of Your Business". She mailed me back the very next day demanding to know if I was ashamed to call myself LDS. I haven't answered that. It's not that I'm avoiding it. I just don't feel that I am required to respond to every single mail I get from someone demanding answers to a question that they really have no right asking in the first place.
I posted something back at the beginning of January stating that my New Years resolution this year was to stop caring what other people though about what I felt/said. If what I felt and said offended someone, I was willing to have a civilized discussion with them to understand their perspective about it but I was no longer going to stay quiet on subjects that matter to me just because I didn't want to upset people's feelings. I then responded to my own posed with detailed instructions for those that felt that my posts might be too much for them to read on how to either unfollow me but still remain friends or how to unfriend me altogether. She then mailed me demanding to know exactly what type of material I was going to be posting that was going to be so obscene that people would unfriend me over it and to rethink my actions.
With all of the drama that has surrounded the legal workings surrounding the issuances of wedding licenses to gay couples in the state of Alabama this week, I made a post that simply said: "Look, if you don't like gay marriage, Don't marry a gay person. If your deeply held religious belief prevents you from being able to issue a license or to marry two legal gay people, don't hold a public office where you would be asked to do this. If your bible tells you that you can't bake a cake for gay people, fine! But understand that you will need to restructure your entire business so that it is in no way shape or form considered a public accommodation. Those are some pretty big legal hoops you are going to have to jump through by the way. Especially if your same bakery is willing to bake a cake for a opposite sex couple that had premarital sex, a child out of wedlock or is already living together before the wedding. Just so you know." ... Well, I'm sure you can imagine how well that post went over with her.
And then we add in a few recent conversations involving our 12 year old son and the decision to not have him receive the priesthood. Now mind you, even if we were TBM, because of his autism, our oldest just isn't at the place to be able to make the decision to receive the priesthood. So no. It wouldn't be happening this year no matter what. But my dear sweet MIL whom I would like to run over with a bus, a big bus, seems to think that the problem must be something bigger. And since we are dealing with a 12 year old, a 12 year old boy with access to technology, his OWN personal technology, the issue must be porn. We received in the mail Friday a box that my dear sweet mother in law sent, paying almost $65 in shipping for, filled with books, leaflets and other helpful material about the evils of porn, how to stop the addiction to porn, repentance from porn. Blah Blah Blah Blah porn.
And so last night after all the monsters got into bed, after I got my husband up to date on the dog situation that he would have to deal with in the morning, I opened a iMessage window with my dear sweet mother in law. I wanted to start out nice, because no conversation ends well when the other person is immediately put on the defensive.
"Hey Roxanna!
I guess, Thank you first for thinking of us and taking the time to put together a box to mail to us. I know with everything you guys have going on, that probably wasn't easy right now. I Just wanted to clear one thing up though.Our decision to now have James receive the priesthood has nothing to do with any sort of worthiness issue. He isn't having any problems with pornography right now. It is something we talk to him about a lot pretty openly and it just hasn't become an issue yet. But thanks for caring about him enough to send some resources. I know you were just trying to help the best you could from half a country away.
So how's the bathroom going? Have you guys picked out tile yet for the shower? I know that was the hardest part for us!"
-- See, I thanked her, I made it clear it wasn't a worthiness issue, Thanked her again, And changed the subject to asking her about a very expensive bathroom project they are in the middle of--
That wasn't ok....
This started a whole line of questioning on exactly what was going on in our house. Why was our son not ready to get the priesthood? Why was I supporting gay marriage which was clearly against the teaching of the church? Why wouldn't I take my family to see the Meet The Mormon's movie when it was in theaters here and they came for a visit and they offered to pay? Why was my son no longer participating in the Scouting program? Why didn't we want to go to the temple with them when they came to our house for a visit? WHAT WAS GOING ON????
This wasn't going well. And so I made the decision. My parents are my problem. His parents are going to be his problem. Yes, I'm a chicken and that's the chicken's way out. So I told him what was going on, I dialed his mother's number and I handed him the phone (he did have the option to press send or not)
And then my husband got to have the most uncomfortable 45 minute conversation of his life, all on speakerphone. I share, with his permission, some of the highlights here.
* Do we know how bad this is going to look to her friends? Having a son and his whole family going apostate? --His response was something along the lines of, 'Gee mom, and here I thought you were going to be more concerned with my eternal salvation and not what the ladies at the cannery thought about your youngest son that they haven't seen in 15 years.'
* What does it matter is Joseph Smith maybe execrated the truth a tiny bit at the beginning? You still feel the spirit whispering that the church is true when you pray? --His response was "JS's "translation of the Book of Abraham is a total lie. He lied and claimed he only had one wife in a sworn document, even having witnesses sign that document to say it was true, some of those witnesses being the family members of his plural wives or the plural wives themselves. There is a lot more mom but honestly, I'm not debating with you.
* This is all because you started playing those video games. I knew when you started playing those internet games you were allowing Satan to enter your home. And look what it's done now. You need to turn back to good wholesome things and turn away from these things that Satan uses to trick you like video games. --His response was something along the lines of 'Look, mom, it's not going to happen. And I really need to get to bed here soon. We have a tower coming out of RF tomorrow morning and it's going to be a cap op. I have a dread and the chance to maybe kill a titan if they bring one out to play. So, Is there anything else you need to ask before I go?
She ended with that she would pray for us. He responded that he appreciated it and that prayers are always welcomed but he was going to have to add a few things to the boundaries that we have in place because she has made it clear over the last 15 years that if it isn't clearly spelled out in a boundary, she is free to speak her mind and do whatever she pleases.
He told her that while he respects that she and her husband are still fully believing and practicing LDS members, he and his family are not. As such, she was to no send LDS themed material of any sort to the house, to the children, to the dog (yes, an incident from the past requires us to even specify the dog). She is not to ask the children about church attendance or testify to them about anything. If something is clearly a spiritual occasion (Christmas) then yes, she is more than welcome to make a comment about the celebration of the birth of our savior Christ. But leave the big theology out of it. If it isn't covered in a Veggie Tale holiday Special, it isn't a topic for discussion with the kids.
I have to laugh a tiny bit at this because she pulled out the waterworks (her go to tactic when things aren't going her way) and because the church is her life, what is she supposed to talk to her grandbaaaabies about. These dear sweet grandbaaaaaabies that we not only keep from her year round because we choose to live on the other side of the US (not that military assignment has anything to do with that or anything) but our decision to leave the church will also break the bonds that will tie us all together for eternity and blah blah blah blah. I told her there was plenty to talk about. Legos. Thomas the Train. Knock Knock Jokes. And if she had to resort to Veggie Tales, I loved the Giant Chocolate Bunny one. (Mainly because I would LOVE to have a giant chocolate bunny to snack on right now).
The conversation ended with her saying my husband would probably hear from his father when he comes back in town (he is away for business right now) and that he is going to be very disappointed in us (I think that's supposed to wound me or something). She will be praying for us and she ask that my husband please ask his wife to not post any more of her provocative postings on Facebook until we get this nonsense settled. (I just have her blocked for now I guess)
My husband is ready to just cut them off. It kind of makes me sad that he isn't really bothered at the prospect of cutting off the relationship he has with his parents. They were never, at least during our married years, close. But still, they are his parents. I don't want to push. Pushing isn't my job. But I'm not sure where to go from here other than to say, well, they are your parents so they are your problem but here is how we have decided to run our life and raise our children. They either need to accept it, look the other way or move on.
(And when it comes to my side, at least my parents, while the do not agree with a lot of what we believe in, they respect my husband and I enough to say that it's our lives, these are our children and this is our choice. So they pretty much have backed off. They have learned that the "I don't want to see this" option on Facebook" is their best friend".
*All Names Are Being Changed Because Not Doing So Is Sort Of a Jerkish Thing To Do.