Posted by:
6 iron
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Date: January 29, 2015 03:13PM
Mormonism made me feel like I didn't belong in the real world, but also I didn't fully fit in the the cult world. It was so lopsided, cult stuff + parent stuff 90%, me 10%.
My dad died today and I feel nothing because he was lifetime bishop, narcissist, controlling, using, prophet in his own mind that had is own following of followers that were convinced that all his kids were evil, inspite of the fact that 3 were mos, 2 became exmos.
Don't share condolences, I don't need them. I got to the point that he wanted to live his lifestyle, and that was his business, I just no longer wanted to be one of his minions. My ideology, my lifestyle, what I admire in others was 360 degrees different from his. I cut my losses and walked away, years ago.
I wish I had had more normalcy and moderation in my past tbm life. It is a shame that now middle aged I missed out on a past that could have been.
Stupid missionaries that tracted into our house when I was 1. My older siblings remembered a lot of fun and activities pre Mormonism.
Sigh.