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Date: February 14, 2016 08:31PM
This is a follow-up to my previous thread:
http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,1768207DW and I finally talked after this morning when she said, just before going to church, that she would move out as soon as she could find a place to live. All of this had followed on her recently being upset that I ref used to "choose to belive" TSCC is true.
She thought that what I was missing in order to believe was a "broken heart and Contrite spirit." What is that, a scripture reference?
Anyway, as a result of dinner last night with mormon friends and my not going to church with her this morning, she thought I was passive-aggressively trying to set up a situation where she would be forced to leave me rather than being honest enough to end our marriage on my own.
Last night at a table with five other couples (all mormons), I had the audacity to order a mixed drink with my dinner. (I don't mix my own drinks, so eating out is my opportunity to enjoy one, and I was not about to let the presence of Mormons get in my way.)
My TBM BIL joked to the waitress, "there's got to be one at every party." I joked back, "Yes, I'm the designated drinker." Everybody laughed and we all enjoyed our dinner.
This morning I woke DW to get ready for church and said that I would stay home today. That after our heated conversation on Thursday, I thought my attendance with her may have given her the false hope that I would still convert. I told her that I loved her and would go with her in the future if she wanted , but that today I needed to step back. That led up to the scene this morning after she was dressed and headed out the door.
When we finally talked, and we were both calm, I explained that I was heartbroken when she said she was moving out. She admitted that that was the purpose and quoted the thing about broken hearts and contrite spirits. However, she didn't expect to feel like such a "biatch" (her words, not mine) when she saw how heartbroken I was. She said it was a horrible thing to do to somebody who been more loving and supportive in the past three years than the almost 30 yes with her RM Ex.
She can't believe I love her and is constantly afraid that one day I will say enough is enough and finally leave her.