Posted by:
my2cents
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Date: July 23, 2014 07:09PM
Another testimonial that things to get better, but you have to wade through the depths of despair, anger, hurt, revenge, self-loathing, and flat out despondency and depression to get there.
My ex and I tried a separation for 8 months, got back together, then divorced about 8 months after that. We had one minor child at the time, the others were all over 18 and not living at home. When we finally came to the conclusion that we were not going to be happy together as a couple, we sat down and wrote up a document that detailed how we wanted the divorce to proceed; splitting assets, debts, etc. Child support for our minor daughter was dictated by the State, so we had little say in that. But what it allowed us to do was hire 1 attorney who represented my ex, to draw up the divorce papers according to our terms. I was adamant that we maintain control rather than pay dueling attorneys to take it all.
Not all couples can or should go this route; each having their own representation does have its advantages, but the attorney and court fees for our divorce were about $700, and it came out the way we had agreed. And even though the State has a predetermined visitation schedule for minor children, we ignored that for the most part and just worked it out with our daughter, since she was 16.
My ex remarried after 2 years to a TBM, but I don't see much joy in that relationship when I've been around them. I remarried after 6 years and never been happier. I married a high school sweetheart that I hadn't seen or heard from in 37 years. We dated back then in a different state, and when she found me quite accidentally from a website, we were living a mile or so apart in Utah.
In my case, I think that the Mormon marriage model leaves couple very ill-equipped to handle change. When I stopped attending church because of my historical and doctrinal research, my ex could not handle that. Like many, I destroyed her plan for that eternal family in the CK. I probably could have handled that disaffection from the church in a more productive way, but I was very angry at being lied to. And I had felt for years like I was nowhere near the top of her priority list. Her church callings, attendance, her family, kids, and her work all came before me. At the end of the day, there was just nothing left to nurture a relationship.
So now, there is no church interruption in my life. Both my wife and I have hobbies that we enjoy and allow each other time to pursue those interests. We take a couple of really great vacations together every year, have date nights, talk about our day's activities every night, have a glass of wine or a cocktail together, play with our dogs, enjoy each other's kids and grandkids, and make our life together the center, not the peripheral. Of course we've had some issues, but we trust and love each other enough that we work them out in non-threatening ways.
Neither of us plan our life around some promise of a heaven or hell, we make every day exactly what we want it to be, for us. And that is how it should be.