Posted by:
ronas
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Date: January 26, 2012 06:42PM
Sorry that you are in such a difficult state. Here's a few random thoughts based on your post.
Check these articles out. They were helpful for me:
http://packham.n4m.org/atheist2.htmhttp://packham.n4m.org/morality.htmhttp://packham.n4m.org/atheist4.htmhttp://packham.n4m.org/purpose.htmCheck out the church called Unitarian Universalist
http://www.uua.org/. I think it may really appeal to you based on what you say you are after. At a very high level the church doesn't dictate or care what you believe (atheist, Christian, etc., it doesn't matter). It just has a few principles like being kind to others.
There is a theory out there that only two feelings motivate humans: fear and desire. With desire it's usually the fear of not getting what we desire. So you are very normal to be largely motivated by fear.
Just a personal aside. I don't think there is anything wrong with drinking alcohol. However for me personally I've decided not to try it because: a) I am very very subject to addiction - I believe there is a good chance that if I were to start with it, I would become an alcoholic - it's not worth the risk to me, b) It would greatly upset my Mormon wife, and c) The smell of it makes me sick.
I'm not seeing why telling them you don't believe would be upsetting to your wife and father based on what you posted. It seems that your father is very open minded and accepting. It seems that if your wife already sees that you aren't attending church and that it wouldn't be much of a surprise that you don't believe in it. I'm not sure what you are saying you need to "act" on? If you are talking about resigning from the church, my personal opinion is that you have no reason to act on it unless you have a compelling personal reason to resign. For me there were several reasons it was personally important for me to resign that outweighed the problems.
If I am wrong and it is difficult for your wife to take, you may have a very difficult path. It took me nearly 3 years before I told my wife (who had very little clue because I was still attending church, was elders quorum president, etc.) We have had and continue to have some very difficult times. Even so we are both glad that I let her know.