Posted by:
Lex
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Date: July 02, 2014 05:52PM
That's right I went back to church re bought scriptures told myself my dykeyness is a curable curse. Convinced myself why wouldn't JC go to America, why wouldn't the garden of Eden be in Missouri, I hear it is nice place after all.
Joking aside this happens a lot it is like a circle. I remember the church is a crock of shit--->leave----->come here get supported in the fact it is a crock of shit----> feel strong and I don't want to be dependent on here so stop visiting the forum---->feel there is something missing in my life and I need a church to fill that----> go back to church.
I am getting frustrated. I know I need help to fill the gap the church leaves or more likely therapy so my worth isn't based on being a good Christian.
How do people stay away? I didn't serve a mission or have anything particularly traumatic to remember in times of crisis