Posted by:
anonforthisone
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Date: April 21, 2014 11:38PM
I'm 24, almost 25, and didn't grow up in the church but converted.
I always wanted to get married and have children young, and got involved in several long-term relationships that didn't go well and where I was pretty deprived of sex. I'm primarily with women but I occasionally date men as well (I'm female).
I still feel a pull to settle down and I want to meet the love of my life, but--to be honest--I'm more attractive and confident now than I've ever been; I went through a long, long period of depression and self-loathing, and struggled a lot with coming out and dealing with my sexuality as well as leaving the church and all Christianity/organized religion. Now suddenly I'm getting asked out all the time and I've been having a hard time wanting a commitment, even though I know in my heart that I do and I'm ready. Most days I really just want sex and to flirt and be completely free. I'm afraid I'll be sabotaging myself by pushing away the people who want a long-term relationship with me now in favor of playing the field. I just feel a little wild, but when I've let myself go there before I've ended up feeling guilty and wanting long-term love.
Has anyone dealt with this? What is your advice?