Posted by:
Levi
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Date: March 13, 2014 01:17PM
I've only recently (within the last 12 months) realized that I have suffered with this BS for my entire life.
I'm wondering if mormonism has helped foster this.
As I look back, these feelings that I have were at their worst when I was hauled in to the bishop's office for interviews. Mainly because I knew he was going to ask if I whacked the mole or not. I hated every minute of church and if I was called upon to "bear my testimony" I would be thrown into sheer panic. "Matt, please say the prayer" would raise the hairs on the back of my head. Even way back when when I was quite young and had to give that 2 1/2 minute talk - panic would set in.
You can only imagine 2 years in Japan selling this BS door to door.
The only time in my mormon experience that was free of it was the temple. There was no calling on me to do any public speaking, prayers, scripture reading, bearing of testimony etc. It was just sanctioned drag, pretty chandeliers and a movie that I'd seen hundreds of times, so I liked it. Also, I thought I was doing something good for my fellow man that had come before me. Turns out it wasn't nuthin but make-work.
Anyway, in your opinion, do you think that mormonism either caused it or fostered my anxiety?