Posted by Trixie on May 21, 1999 at 21:02:44:
In Reply to: Awe, Love, and other Unexplainables posted by Jerry on May 21, 1999 at 01:18:39:
Part of what I still struggle with is that, for some reason, there still remains some inner "core" within me that cannot let go of "god". I'm not speaking of the Santa Claus With An Evil Sense of Humor god that I conceived within the LDS culture and my protestant chidhood, and I'm not even speaking of a god that rewards, judges, or desires anything from us at all. I guess maybe I'm talking about something abstract, like Plato's "ideals" (or whatever he called them, and maybe it was Aristotle?) that still resides in me. There are still times when, after several years of agnosticism, I can weep at the idea that maybe I'm wrong, and "he" is still "out there". I don't know why, I don't want anything from "him", I'm happy and fulfilled in my life. I can't figure it out. Is it some sort of instinctual longing for the union with our mothers we once had as newborns, before we even realized we were separate beings?